Colorgenics

Name: Michelle Kuo
Date: 8/28/2009
Colorgenics Number: 20617453

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You are trying to establish yourself and make an impact despite the fact that everything around you seems to be against you - putting up barriers, but don't be unduly concerned: you have the right ideas and come what may, they will soon be manifested and appreciated.

You are not be feeling so good at this time. Everything seems to be getting on top of you. What you need is a rest from all of the the present trials and tribulations in peaceful surroundings and with someone - male or female, it doesn't really matter - who can really understand you and appreciates your needs.

In spite of all the opposition, you are insisting that your goals are realistic but circumstances are forcing you to compromise. You are not very happy with this situation but there is little that you can do about it. You have very strict standards which you try to apply to everyone who enters your sphere of influence.

You are experiencing extreme frustration at this point of time, trying to achieve security and peace of mind, but whatever you seem to do doesn't effect the situation. You are worn out and your energy is being seriously depleted. You may be experiencing what is known as 'heartache' - both mentally and physically. You are a listener and you listen and respond to everything that is going on around you. You feel that all that life has to offer should be within your grasp and you would like to participate in every part of it but the situation is such that every door seems to be closed to you. You just can't understand why that is. But it is - and what's more you feel powerless to change it.

Overwork - be it mental stress or physical strain, you are completely worn out and this depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation. You feel disappointed with your obvious lack of energy and powerless to do anything about it. You are angry with yourself and this frustration shows. You are contradictory and argumentative and feel helpless to change the situation at this time. Take a break - even if it is only for a few days - allow yourself to breath, to unwind - you'll feel much better for it. Then trust and let go.

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The fact that this is so accurate scares me.

1. I DO feel like everyone/everything is against me. Well, maybe not EVERYONE but like for dance, I know my parents are against it. And sometimes, just through the fact that I'm an introvert, I can see that it can be hard to get along with me and thus for people to support me.

2. I really am trying to "establish" myself. This summer I realized a lot of things about myself that surprised me. And b/c of the fact that I haven't seen a lot of my friends from school this summer, I feel like they won't understand me as well either.

3. Things are getting "on top" of me, I can feel the stress just piling up, waiting. There's that book review I need to get to, and all the summer homework.. Agh, I don't know if I can take it. Luckily I get my few-day-break when I go to Lake Chelan, but that's only if mom doesn't stress me out! I just want three, THREE, freakin' days where she does not piss me off and she doesn't get pissed at me.

4. Haha oh boy, strict standards for everyone who enters my life and may have an influence me. RIGHT ON. Also known as, why I never like a guy enough to want to go out with anyone. I have strict, high standards for everyone that I become SUPER CLOSE friends with. And in my mind I have some people that I want to have some mind-stimulating conversation with.

5. My energy is gone. I don't know if that's because it's 5am and I'm tired, or if just flat-out physically/mentally exhausted. It's like so much thinking goes on in my head that my brain WANTS to stop functioning, it wants to stop overanalyzing everything and just take a break to relax. But I can't help it, I think a lot, then I Tumblr it and clear my head with my outspoken ideas.

6. I'm experiencing extreme frustration.. BECAUSE OF MY MOM. Every single freakin' day I get stressed because of her. And I really can't help it, because it is HER attitude and HER crazy anger problems.

7. "You are contradictory and argumentative and feel helpless to change the situation at this time." NUFF SAID.