Endless

What do you do when you feel like so many topics and opinions pop up in your head and you feel like you want to write about everything but then you just can't? Because it would take too long and you would end up posting 83824234 blogs. Aghhh!

I wish I could just get paid to write my opinion on random things. Just to blog or write all day. It puts my mind in a state of tranquility.

I use mostly my Tumblr now but sometimes I still just post here. Why? Because sometimes I feel like I'm writing some things that are too personal, even for my friends to see. Like, maybe 2 or 3 would be able to actually UNDERSTAND what the hell I'm feeling. My Tumblr URL is posted on my Facebook and it's impossible to comment there so I'm worried that it's not just my followers who read that stuff. Here, I don't care if strangers read my entries because.. I don't know, it's just that feeling, you know? And if Ann or Silla read this since I know they have blogspots too, I don't really care or mind, hahaha.

You know, sometimes I really enjoy just talking to Silla, or Dalica, or Herman, just because we can have "deeper" conversations. I hate small talk and I suck at it. I don't even bother trying that stuff when I'm with people because I don't enjoy it.

I REALLY want a hang out with Dalika, cause I could really use some mind-stimulation right now. And I like how both of us are kind of on that same "level", like how she doesn't want to feel tied down to a guy or anything. I mean, a lot of times I feel that want/need for having a significant other, to be able to go on dates or whatever, but when I REALLY think about it, I don't want to be so committed to someone. At least, not at this age.

Some people think I'm absolutely crazy when I say I want to save the real dating for like marriage. I can see why, it sounds real old-fashioned and it just sounds plain unrealistic. But me and my brother were talking about how if you date "casually" in high school, it can be kind of stupid because if you're not going to marry them, it means the relationship will HAVE to end eventually, and either one or both individuals in the relationship will end up heartbroken. But zero relationships = zero heartbreak. Yaknowhaddamean?

Haha if friends from school saw that, they'd think I'm insane. Whatever! Makes me different :)

Doesn't matter, I have high standards anyways.